well dammit! i don't care if cigarettes contain 4000 chemicals.. fuck it! i'm going to die anyway. plus.. it's one of the very few things in life that brings me enjoyment... why? i don't fucking know... but it does! maybe because i can actually relax for about the 5 or 10 minutes it takes for me to smoke one. maybe it's because it actually does taste good. i smoke the menthols which are full of minty flavor!
and yeah... it is a great stress reliever. oh, plus one of the only reasons i'll leave the house is to go out and buy another pack. otherwise i have no desire to leave the house. pretty sad huh? yeah.. it sucks
it's called agoraphobia.. and i have it! yay! ( for those of you who don't know.. it's when someone has the abnormal fear of open or public places.)